Alone

The closer it gets to her death date, the more enraged I become.  Good thing I'm off work right now, because I don't think I'd make good company for anyone.  Tim tells me I take my anger out on the happy people and that's it's wrong.  I disagree.  I can feel however I want.  It's not like I'm burning down people's houses or something.  My question would be why isn't he jealous of the happy people?  Why isn't he burning inside with rage that never quiets?

I so badly wish someone understood where I am.  I hate feeling all alone.